This past week, I have been struggling. Struggling with a very deep sadness and flashbacks and every other emotion that comes along with me on this journey. I think I knew it was coming last weekend, when I told my husband that I was grumpy. He said “Grumpy? What have you got to be grumpyContinue reading “This Journey is Different”
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Let’s Talk Mental Health
For years, talking about one’s mental health was taboo. People would label you as “crazy” or “nuts.” If someone was suffering with mental health issues, they kept it to themselves, or they were the ones that were self medicating and no one felt they had the right to ask if they needed help. Perhaps thatContinue reading “Let’s Talk Mental Health”
Grief and Social Media
When Noah died, I decided to search out grief groups on social media. I was not surprised that there were many to choose from. Some were groups based on how people died. There are groups for people who have lost loved ones by suicide or murder or SIDS, or a drunk driver. Then there areContinue reading “Grief and Social Media”
“The Day”
The emotional rollercoaster of grief is exhausting. I am 2 weeks away from “the day” and I am all over the map with my emotions. I drove home from my trailer today, which is an hour and a half drive, and I cried all the way. Silent, warm tears just falling from my eyes. IContinue reading ““The Day””
Life takes Effort
October 4th, 2020 with be 2 years since Noah died. I try not to think of it in number of days, because the number is so large. It also brings to the forefront in my mind that the number keeps growing, even though I wish it would just disappear. I have to confess that IContinue reading “Life takes Effort”
A Different Type of Easter
This Easter, families will be celebrating the holiday in a way they never have before. Covid-19 has us all staying home, and having a meal with only those that we live with. It got me to thinking that people will probably really feel the void of not having their family and loved ones over toContinue reading “A Different Type of Easter”
I Am Tired…….
It seems that in grief everything is magnified. Things that would never have bothered me in the past, or that seemed inconsequential, now make me ponder and think. With that comes fatigue. Fatigue that never gives you a moment’s break. I am tired…….tired of waking up each day and reliving the fact that you areContinue reading “I Am Tired…….”
Beauty on the Ice
Over the years, nothing brought me greater joy than watching my boys play the game they love, hockey. Matthew started playing at around the age of 5 and never looked back. At that age, they all got to have a turn playing in goal. They want all the players to experience each position so theyContinue reading “Beauty on the Ice”
I Am a Grieving Mom
I can clearly remember how I felt pre Noah dying. I had both my boys living at home, I had a husband that would laugh often, friends reaching out and wanting to spend time with me, family that would laugh and celebrate when together. I would do crazy snapchats with Matthew and we would bellyContinue reading “I Am a Grieving Mom”
January 1, 2020
The last day of 2019 was an extremely emotional day for me. I could not stop the tears. I felt emotionally dead on Christmas day, and now I feel like I have been thrown back in time, to October 4, 2018. We stayed home on this “momentous” New Year’s Eve. (Insert some sarcasm there….) IContinue reading “January 1, 2020”
A Mom's Journey Through Grief and Life 