Author Archives: Lorraine Trulsen

I Am Tired…….

It seems that in grief everything is magnified. Things that would never have bothered me in the past, or that seemed inconsequential, now make me ponder and think. With that comes fatigue. Fatigue that never gives you a moment’s break. I am tired…….tired of waking up each day and reliving the fact that you areContinue reading “I Am Tired…….”

Beauty on the Ice

Over the years, nothing brought me greater joy than watching my boys play the game they love, hockey. Matthew started playing at around the age of 5 and never looked back. At that age, they all got to have a turn playing in goal. They want all the players to experience each position so theyContinue reading “Beauty on the Ice”

I Am a Grieving Mom

I can clearly remember how I felt pre Noah dying. I had both my boys living at home, I had a husband that would laugh often, friends reaching out and wanting to spend time with me, family that would laugh and celebrate when together. I would do crazy snapchats with Matthew and we would bellyContinue reading “I Am a Grieving Mom”

January 1, 2020

The last day of 2019 was an extremely emotional day for me. I could not stop the tears. I felt emotionally dead on Christmas day, and now I feel like I have been thrown back in time, to October 4, 2018. We stayed home on this “momentous” New Year’s Eve. (Insert some sarcasm there….) IContinue reading “January 1, 2020”

2nd Christmas Without You……..

Reflecting back on Christmas 2018, I can honestly say that I don’t remember it completely. I know I got Matthew the picture of him with Noah on the back of their dad’s truck, and many of our gifts centred around Noah. Otherwise, I know we had dinner at our friend’s house, but again very littleContinue reading “2nd Christmas Without You……..”

What is Faith?

I was raised Catholic. I remember going to church every Sunday as a family. We would put on our “best clothes”, climb into the station wagon and off we would go. The mass always felt very long, and I usually didn’t understand half of what they were preaching. I know that I was baptized, andContinue reading “What is Faith?”

H.P.C.C.

As the director of the childcare centre that I work at, I have a steadfast rule: Don’t invite me to birthdays, weddings, baby showers, wedding showers or anything that is personal outside of our workplace. It may sound harsh, but I know for myself that I need this boundary to be the boss that IContinue reading “H.P.C.C.”