Wow! It has been almost a year since I have done any writing at all. It feels good to be back at it! I started taking an anti-depression / anxiety medication almost a year ago. The original dosage had me feeling like a zombie, correction, had me feeling like I was completely dead inside. IContinue reading “It’s been way too long…….”
Tag Archives: grief
This Journey is Different
This past week, I have been struggling. Struggling with a very deep sadness and flashbacks and every other emotion that comes along with me on this journey. I think I knew it was coming last weekend, when I told my husband that I was grumpy. He said “Grumpy? What have you got to be grumpyContinue reading “This Journey is Different”
Let’s Talk Mental Health
For years, talking about one’s mental health was taboo. People would label you as “crazy” or “nuts.” If someone was suffering with mental health issues, they kept it to themselves, or they were the ones that were self medicating and no one felt they had the right to ask if they needed help. Perhaps thatContinue reading “Let’s Talk Mental Health”
A Conversation on Repeat
Sleep evaded me last night. I went to bed tired, so I thought it would come easily. I followed my usual routine of the last two years. Every night I kiss my ash pendant goodnight and tell Noah that I love him. I then lay down, close my eyes, and have a mental conversation withContinue reading “A Conversation on Repeat”
Grief and Social Media
When Noah died, I decided to search out grief groups on social media. I was not surprised that there were many to choose from. Some were groups based on how people died. There are groups for people who have lost loved ones by suicide or murder or SIDS, or a drunk driver. Then there areContinue reading “Grief and Social Media”
“The Day”
The emotional rollercoaster of grief is exhausting. I am 2 weeks away from “the day” and I am all over the map with my emotions. I drove home from my trailer today, which is an hour and a half drive, and I cried all the way. Silent, warm tears just falling from my eyes. IContinue reading ““The Day””
Life takes Effort
October 4th, 2020 with be 2 years since Noah died. I try not to think of it in number of days, because the number is so large. It also brings to the forefront in my mind that the number keeps growing, even though I wish it would just disappear. I have to confess that IContinue reading “Life takes Effort”
Connections
So usually I don’t do the games and the sharing of games on Facebook, but just recently I did. I thought it would give people something different to do besides share conspiracies about Covid. This game was one of those math quizzes, that are done with pictures of different items and each item has aContinue reading “Connections”
A Different Type of Easter
This Easter, families will be celebrating the holiday in a way they never have before. Covid-19 has us all staying home, and having a meal with only those that we live with. It got me to thinking that people will probably really feel the void of not having their family and loved ones over toContinue reading “A Different Type of Easter”
Covid-19 and Me
I don’t know about everyone else, but self isolation is nothing new to me. Since the day Noah died, there is nowhere I would rather be, than inside the four walls of my home. You see, it is a safe place. A place where I can feel what I need to feel, react how IContinue reading “Covid-19 and Me”
A Mom's Journey Through Grief and Life 