Over the past 10 months, I have heard: “you are so strong” or “how do you find the strength to carry on?” When I hear these sayings, I usually find myself thinking “I don’t feel strong, but I must be portraying that somehow,” or “some days, I don’t know where the strength comes from.” AlthoughContinue reading “Strong vs Strength”
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To my son, Matthew
Where has the time gone? One minute you were a tiny newborn, and now here you are a young man, about to set out on an adventure that will shape your life. I knew from the second you were born, that you would be a strong, determined individual. The pregnancy was not an easy one,Continue reading “To my son, Matthew”
Angels Among Us
Those first days after Noah passed away are basically a blur. I believe your body just knows to keep on moving, but it doesn’t know where to move to. I recall spending hours on end just sitting in my living room, feeling so numb. Slowly the house started filling with family, and then the mediaContinue reading “Angels Among Us”
10 Months
You have been gone for 10 months, which is over 300 days. 300 days and nights of kissing my fingerprint pendant goodnight, telling you that I love you and wishing you were here. As I lay my head down at night and close my eyes, tears start to escape from the corners. It seems thatContinue reading “10 Months”
Rest Stops and Traffic Jams
As we travel this road of grief, there are rest stops, which are the signs of beauty and love, and then there are traffic jams, which are the anxiety attacks or an overwhelming sadness that completely overtakes you. The worst though, is when you end up with a traffic jam in a rest stop……. MyContinue reading “Rest Stops and Traffic Jams”
Walk a Mile In Their Shoes
In this day and age when technology is all around us and basically a part of everything we do, do we really stop and think about people? Do we remember that there is a human spirit in all of us, and we all still have feelings, and emotions? Wednesday was an extremely emotional, as wellContinue reading “Walk a Mile In Their Shoes”
A different view on life
There is life before Noah passed away, and then there is life after. The one before is full of memories, laughter, light, and love that all encompassed him. The life after is so different. Memories are the life before. We don’t really reflect back on them as much as we should while all is goodContinue reading “A different view on life”
Flashbacks
I get flashbacks of that night, or rather the early morning of October 4, 2018. I am sharing that night’s events because it is such a major part of our grief. Grief doesn’t start at the moment the person dies. It is a timeline of all the events and emotions that surround the death. ItContinue reading “Flashbacks”
Marriage
I remember the day I met him. I was finally comfortable being on my own, and then BAM! There he was, this handsome guy with a mullet. We have been together basically since the day we met. Something clicked, something felt right. In just over a year of meeting, we were pregnant and married. AContinue reading “Marriage”
A Few Hours of Peace
Today, my better half convinced me to go fishing with him. We are on our summer holidays and each day is long and slow, just how it should be. I thought I should try this fishing thing, since it had been a very, very long time. I believe I have gone once before with myContinue reading “A Few Hours of Peace”
A Mom's Journey Through Grief and Life 