7 Months Later

Seven months and one day ago I heard your voice, hugged you, gave you a hook and told you I love you. I have learned much in the last seven months, but I truly learned a lot in this past week away.
I learned that having good friends is important. People that love and accept you, and all that you are going through and quietly understand.
I learned that I don’t need to apologize, although I feel like I should, when tears overtake me.
I learned that I will have good times, and still be able to make memories.
I learned that grief will sneak up on you at the most inopportune times, and it will control you in that moment, and you just have to let it.
I learned that there are triggers everywhere, no matter how far you travel away from home.
I learned that sometimes you have to step outside of your comfort zone, and just be in the moment. 
I learned that taking photos, no matter how much you hate having your picture taken, is important for your children.
I learned that perhaps our loved ones do send signs that they are near.
I learned that I truly am blessed to have my best friend and husband by my side through all of this.
I learned that this is my new normal. So many parts have changed since October 4, 2018.
I learned that I must take each day as it comes, good, bad or ugly and just do the best that I can.
I love you to the moon and beyond Noah, but this I already knew❤️